The sins of the Father.

There is an expression that goes something like "The sins of the father shall be visited upon the son." Now I know I am not a man but does the saying still apply. Does the sins of the father visit upon his offspring?

David and I have been talking about having children when he comes home. I have been giving this a lot of thought and I must confess that I am afraid of having children. I am afraid that perhaps what was done to me I shall do to my child. I do not feel like that is something I am capable of but the fear is still inside of me.

Today while spending time with friends I had the chance to babysit a baby and as I held her and she fell asleep in my arms all of my fears rushed right to the surface. How in the world can I ever think I would make a good parent?

I am feeling down today. I am feeling like a failure as a granddaughter, as a daughter, as a friend, as a wife and as a person.