My husband informed me today that I cry a lot. I have been thinking about that a lot since he said it and I have to agree that I have been crying a lot lately. Part of the reason I am so emotional is of course that he is gone on deployment but after the first couple of weeks I was adjusted and even though I still missed him I was not crying all the time like when he first left. Since I got back from my visit to Tennessee I have been through a lot of emotional stuff, from finding out that David was writing to other women he loved them, to dealing with going to the doctor once or twice a week for about a month, to dealing with my dental problems. All of that stuff adds up and being in physical pain (excruciating pain at times!) and emotional pain, of course I am going to cry a lot.
I can usually deal with stress without being emotional about it but when everything is thrown at me all at once I am going to crack under all the pressure. I am only one person, I cannot be strong all of the time. I hate to admit this but David provides most of my support emotionally and I feel like I can talk to him about anything, but lately I have been trying to hide some of the stress I am going through from him. Perhaps now I should try to hide all of the stress from him. I know he is under a lot of stress over there, dealing with being away from home and in a combat zone, perhaps it is not fair of me to put my stress onto him. Perhaps I should "suck it up" (as the infantryman says) and just deal with it on my own.
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keeping it pent up isn't healthy either. have you thought of seeing a counselor? that proves to be really helpful to me along with good friends, but like you say everyone has different schedules and that is difficult too. hugs!!
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