Is it finally over?

Could it finally be over? After about 5 days could this cold/flu or whatever it is finally be done? I have not had chills or sweats since this morning. I am not flying off the handle at everything (my poor neighbors think I am a psycho) and my head is feeling better. Oh, yeah, and I can sorta breath! How nice that is haha.

I tend to be emotional when I am sick and dealing with this deployment and family stuff does not help out any. I finally had to bite the bullet and actually delete someone from Facebook because of nasty comments that they kept making towards me. It got so bad that he made me cry a couple of times because he kept talking about my grandparents dying and how I don't care because I am not there helping out. My family knows that I feel guilty very easy and he took advantage of that one too many times. He told me that no one really cares about me and even though I know that is not true it still made me insecure about people. (Thus the reason I was asking David to make me feel special-see previous post). Oh well. I deleted him from Facebook, now if only I could stop feeling guilty and so unloved.

I have a bad habit of taking my stress out on people closest to me. Instead of admitting the reasons I am stressed out I focus on one thing that someone may or may not be doing and I pounce on that. I wish David were online so I could beg his forgiveness for being so horrible towards him. I wish I could talk to him and tell him how much I love him and how much he means to me. I miss him very much and I hope he knows how extraordinary he is.