Sunday, February 6, 2011

Me, talk to more people?

I was informed today by my husband that I need to talk to more people. I find that to be funny and a little offensive at the same time. A little offensive because when David and I do talk most of the time he does not ask what my daily activities are, nor who I am speaking with, he usually just asks how I am doing and how my day was. I answer his questions honestly but if he does not ask I generally do not tell. So I find it offensive that he said that not knowing if I do or don't talk to anyone. BTW, generally speaking I do not talk to a lot of people, I find it very hard to trust people enough to form a lasting relationship with them plus the people I do want to talk to are way to busy to talk to me. Even when David is home I do not talk to a lot of people nor do I go out to social events a lot. I also find it funny that he said that because he knows that people do not really talk to me outside of the general politeness of saying hello or whatnot. He also knows that the only person around here I do speak to on a somewhat normal basis I get tired of talking to because she makes things up, constantly says that David is going to get kicked out of the Army and said that I need to stop being said that David is gone because he is in the Army and we had to expect it to happen. So I think it is funny he told me that knowing the people around me.

OK, so now that I have said that I must say that I am very depressed right now, I have a horrible self image because of dental problems and weight problems. I am in danger of becoming an agoraphobic (I am joking, kinda) and I know all of this but I still find it hard to leave the house and talk to people because I am so self conscious of myself. I KNOW this is a problem and I am trying to work with it. I am forcing myself to get out of bed, shower, leave the house, go to the store or park or wherever. I am trying, really I am.

1 comment:

6L's said...

that's all you can do is try. it is good to get out and meet people so you can get emotional support from others. i have talked to jenn about this same thing. it is harder for some people than others. keep trying, i think you are doing pretty awesome at articulating your emotions and working through them while he is gone. hang in there!