I sometimes feel like there is nobody that understand me, not even my husband. I think it is mostly because of my childhood and things that have happened to me but it makes it hard when I am not understood. I feel that people who hurt you need to stay in the past, they do not need to be brought to the present, not by the person they hurt or the person's family or friends. When I find people in my life have welcomed in people that have hurt me I tend to cut ties with that person. My biological father has another daughter - my half sister. She and I are friends on FB and her and David are friends on FB. He speaks with her on chat and for the longest time it bothered me and I did not really know why until one day she posted that she just got off the phone with her father and told him all about her friends on FB and how she may go live with him. In that instant I knew what was making my skin crawl about her and David talking on FB. I told him about it, told him I was not going to tell him to stop speaking with her but I would appreciate it if he did. He didn't, he still talks with her. I think that because he was never truly hurt by someone who was supposed to protect him (other than his ex wife making him feel like no one loved him, not even his family but that was more psychological, still significant but not the same) he does not really know or understand why I feel the way I do. I think that I have explained it to him enough that if I tell him I am not comfortable with it, he should know not to do it. I think perhaps I should be blunt with him and just have him delete her from his friends list and block her, that way there is no chance that my biological father's life will mix with mine.
Time to get the scissors out and make some cuts in my life.
1 comment:
i feel the very same at times...about your first sentence. and i think blunt is the way to go if he's not getting it.
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