Just between us.

I have been thinking of something for a while now but have not yet wrote about it on here. Mainly because I have one follower and I am afraid of what she may think. So to my follower, I apologize if this upsets you in any way.

David has been thinking of getting a tattoo (the upsetting I mentioned earlier) and he kinda already knows what he wants. A shield, two swords and a skull. He says that it means "Defend to the death those I love" (paraphrasing). Before he told me what he was wanting he just mentioned he was thinking of getting a tattoo. I asked, half jesting half serious, if he would get one that symbolizes me and our relationship and he said no. Then he proceeded to tell me what he wanted and what it meant.

Maybe I am over-thinking this but shouldn't that, in some way, symbolize me? Should I not be included among those he loves? When I asked him if that did not symbolize me in the most general of ways he said no. Does that mean he does not love me?  What does that say about how he feels about me?

I feel as though he has rejected me and my love. I know he says that he loves me but it is things like this that make me feel as though he does not.