Lack of motivation.

I apologize for not writing in the blog very recently. I have lacked motivation to actually log on and type anything. There are a couple of new things in my life recently that have kept me a little busy.

I started working recently at the Fort Riley Post Museum. There are two main museums that I work at on the weekend and every once and a while a week day. The main one is the Cavalry Museum and then the 1st Infantry Division Museum. It is interesting to see the different things that happened at Fort Riley going back to when the Fort was started and I enjoy working there for the most part. There are a couple of hard things about working there, one of them is on an average day I walk up and down 800-1000 stairs. I suppose it is good exercise for me but I have some physical problems that make working more than the weekend difficult because of all the stairs. The other hard thing is that in 1st ID museum there is a room dedicated to the fallen soldiers from the war in Iraq and Afghanistan, it is hard for me to walk in and inspect the room, to see the names of the solders that gave their lives. I get tears in my eyes every time I have to inspect the room (which is on the hour every hour). 

I am also training to work at the Custer House Museum giving guided tours to people. Explaining how live was in the 1800s, again more stairs and at this one I am on my feet most of the day. My legs, butt and feet are killing me today. I hope that eventually I will get used to it so it will not be so bad.

For the most part I do enjoy getting out of the house for the weekend to go to work. It gives me a bit of a break from my dog and neighbors. I am not sure if I will be working there this coming winter because of the lack of hours but time will tell. Plus I am not fond of the thought of working weekends once David gets home. At least not for the first couple of months after he gets home. I think that we will need time to get to know each other again and get used to living with each other again and if he works during the weekdays and I work during the weekends how will that happen?

I have begun to separate myself from my neighbors. Mostly because of one neighbor but she kind of has her fingers in everyone's business so I am separating from all of my neighbors. I do not like the rumors, lies, backstabbing, and general bad attitude that this one neighbor spreads around. That means that I am even more cut off and alone than I have been because I really do not have anyone here. I have a couple of "friends" but no one really reliable that I can talk to or spend time with. I do feel alone most of the time, like I am forgotten. I know that is not true, I know that I am not forgotten but most of the time it is a feeling I have that I cannot get rid of.

On a happier note David finally found out the dates of his R&R!!!! So we will be planning a trip to Tennessee for about four or five days once he gets here. I cannot say on here the exact dates of his R&R but when he gets to Fort Riley we will be calling to let people know.